A mother grieves her son’s murder and brother’s suicide after the trial, marking five years of profound loss.
Taylor was a university student who went to a birthday party in Stockton. He never came home. Someone stabbed him 64 times, with forty wounds on his head. His mom, Lindsey Allison, was devastated.
The murder trial brought more heartbreak. Nathan Costello murdered Taylor in 2019. They knew each other from martial arts. Costello pleaded not guilty, claiming he did not remember the attack, despite his text confession.
Lindsey faced another loss during court. Her brother, Niki, died by suicide after learning trial details online.
Lindsey said the killer took two lives. She buried her son and then her brother; an unfathomable task. She wonders if she deserved such sorrow.
Lindsey spoke about Taylor’s death, saying it has been five years since it happened, but it feels like a lifetime without him.
Her other son, Shae, helps her cope. She finds strength in his innocent face, as he relies on her every day. Shae deserves a happy childhood, and she wants to be the best mom she can be.
Costello got a life sentence with a minimum of 21 years. Shae has separation anxiety and always needs reassurance from his mom. He fears losing her too, Lindsey said.
Lindsey’s mom has PTSD, haunted by her grandson’s death. Niki took his life from the grief.
Losing Taylor was too much for Niki. It happened before the guilty verdict. The heartbreak took a toll on everyone. Lindsey feels forever changed.
Lindsey now lives a new normal, a life without Taylor. She grieves his absence and lost future.
She hopes to see him again someday, to meet him in the sky, where he can show her around his home there.